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Friday, March 30, 2007

another bad day of the year.
was just wondering how many bad days will i have this year?
last year ive got many of it.
they were all life issues.
they just suck to the core.

shant elaborate more. but i would like to highlight a little of it.
well. it was just like a heated controversy on whether i should go for NPSU camp.
oh well. seriously, i really feel like attending the camp.
not because of anything particular but just PURELY for fun and enjoyment.
however, xiang heard it from past experiences that NPSU camp is just an event for guys to MOLEST girls.
must be wondering WTH?!?!
but yea. many can vouch it.
ah, after so much rubbish happening (my fault), i decided not to go for the camps already.
to satisfy everybody and prevent myself from getting "TOUCHED" by guys there.

my knuckle is seriously bruised.
xiang accidentally hit my hand against the wall on the mrt platform.
DARN.
its darn painful.
its swollen i guess.

justine and i left the platform as we had to go for ballet.
oh well. ballet class was pushed back to 4pm instead of the earlier 3pm.
because many TROUBLESOME NJC people couldnt come at 3pm.
so ms foo just brought it backwards.
today's class didnt favour anyone.
especially me.
today's class was just rubbish.
i wasnt square on my hips doing attitude and arabesque and led to ms foo's ringing question on whats wrong with me.
all of us were just feeling lethargic.
especially me. i didnt have the mood to dance at all.
neither did i have the energy to hold my body.
the only wonderful thing that ALWAYS excites me is pirouttes.
haha. :D
i can really be hyper doing it.
kelly and justine can vouch it. (:
i miss kelly. seriously.
oh well. but someone misses kelly more.
HAHA. THAT PERSON IS NONE OTHER THAN NG WAH CHUN. HAHA!
--
too bad coppelia's plan wasnt successful. =X

i'd cried enough.
i dont want to cry anymore.
i dont want to cry anymore over you, over this relationship.
you unwillingly forced me to leave you, i couldnt.
how i wished some things can just end with a snap at your fingers.
but things arent easy like that.
though there will be sufferings, im willing to bear them.
this can be contradicting, but when you are in the situation yourself, you can find yourself understanding it. like me for now.
let no tears fall because of you.
please honey. i just want to be happy.
if you want to die, kill me first.
if you want to bang your whatever body parts against the wall, let me do it first.
if you want to slit your wrists, i'll do the same.
ive done those before and i will do it if you do.
im NOT kidding with you.
let no emotions take over you.
you are supposed to be the one taking over your own emotions.
you are a weakling, you claimed. i can vouch for it.
i can proudly say that im emotionally stronger than you.
probably thats me. i tend to forget things easily.
but when things accumulate, there'll going to be a disaster.
but for now, things havent started accumulating.
luckily.
so dont even let it start.
i will try my very best to end all unhappiness.
but it takes TWO hands to clap.
hope you'll work with me.
dont be to possessive, i advise.
baby, i love you so.
thats why it hurts me seeing you sobbing and fighting hard against the problem like that.
try another way. it might help. (:
love you baby.

nearly lost my ring today. was working at dancepointe and jenn asked me to pack stuffs for the younger girls' upcoming exam.
my ring fits my forth finger loosely, so it dropped in the cupboard at the counter today.
luckily ms foo found it.
know what, i couldnt even feel it wasnt on my fingers!
WHAT A DUMB DEBORAHLOOMINYI ON EARTH!!!
then ms foo suaned me. saying that she shouldnt pack the things because she'll loose her ring too.
WHATEVER. (8

went home and started crying over the phone again.
SIGH. never ending.
oh well. finally can wipe the sweat off my head.
everything is fine and peaceful now.
just want to thank JUSTINEKWANYITING for being such a good and thoughtful friend to stand up for me and raised up her opinions.
i really do appreciate that. (:
LOVE YOU GIRL.
see you on sunday! ^.^

working tmr at kodak. (:
haha. whee. :D

-life still goes on....

- i just wanted to say ...# ;