LIFE MATTERS?

Sunday, February 25, 2007

25th FEBRUARY!!

honey's birthday today.
and it fell on a sunday. and today, sunday, there was church in the morning.
YAWNS.
guess what. hney brought me something but i forgot to bring the stuff i wanted to pass to him!
how can the deborah be so so so forgetful?!!??!!?

gjq39vjednkdvnsae.

nvm.
then we went out together to. JURONG POINT.
though its a boring place to have a birthday celebration for honey.
but because, we've got no time.
absolutely no time.
because ive gotta run for ballet at 5pm!

but nevertheless, we managed to enjoy.
enjoyed ourselves with a movie. a pair of couple ring. no food and minor conflict.
i regretted making you angry and disappointed on your birthday.
but i just seriously dont like it honey...
pls understand. (:

niway. they are already over.
and we were back to good terms once more! ^.^
love you honey. gonna meet you later.
to see me take passport photo. MANN.
gonna be so so so embarrassing!!! )x

anyway. i seriously hope that honey've enjoyed his birthday despite having little conflict with me.
gonna celebrate belated vday and 6months together!!!!

-ilu.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Saturday, February 24, 2007

yes. im not initiative.
yes. im always busy.
yes. i dont want to listen to you.
because i want to be daddy's girl. i want to be mummy's girl.
nowadays, due to my parents' conflict, i was able to have a chance to be my mummy's girl.
i was able to spend time with her, eat lunch with her.
i feel so happy. and i dont want this life to be taken away from me.

if you ask me to choose between you and my family, i would sadly have to say, i would choose my family.
this decision was so hard for me to make. it was a tough one.
family will always stay with me. but you wont.

im not fit to be the one for you.
i cant always be there for you.
you should know that.
you should also know and understand my situation.
SIGH.
so please. im so tired of it.
accept that we cant meet that often.
accept that im a busy girl.
accept that im a lousy girlfriend.

so i shall see you tmr dear.
lets have a good talk.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

today marks the 2nd day of lunar chinese new year.

the first day was kind of boring. didnt do much but just eat and eat and eat.

how should i summarise them?

oh nvm. shant be long-winded.

the second day which is today, isnt much better. haha. still, BORING.

angbaos? haha. yes. (:

into my hands?

HAHAHAHAA.

N-O.

its a total boring chinese new year.

but only a few things spiced up my two boring days.

FIRST DAY- my cousins. (: they are sooooo adorable!!

SECOND DAY- my aunt-mummy's doggie, COBY. he's so adorable. i sat by him while he was being locked up in the toilet. haha. that was how bored i was!

some pics. dont smile. they are quite lame. =X

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Saturday, February 17, 2007

chinese new year is coming. haha. and i've bought my new year clothes.
YIPPs.
skirts and tops.
mann. im high. just feeling high and excited. (:
many ang baos are coming in.
TO MY HANDS. whaha. :D
though i've ever thought of smuggling a few of them into my own pocket.
*woops!
my brother thought of THAT no-so-nice idea. haha.

-push the blame to him

yea. anyway. i bought my new year clothes with my cousin and my aunt.
they were so so so good to me.
they were THAT good.
i felt super paiseh when they were treating me so well.
they just took me as one of their closest.
that day, i went taka to meet them, and shopped for clothes.
and yea. went to eat crystal jade.
and didnt want to go home.
yet at that moment, i had to face the reality. that is IVE TO GO HOME!!
there was a TWIST.
my aunt suggested to stay with her for a night.
and my cousin was super excited. haha.
i was excited too.

anyway.
im really thankful to those who cared so much about me.
who took care of me. and who understood me when i was a monster.
im really thankful to those who taught me so much and who comforted me.
who was there to listen to all my rubbish and craps. haha.

today went to work. and develop photos for myself. haha. :D
i find myself so sweet and cheerful.
and cute and adorable. mann.
ego turning big. oh mann.
ok. reverse everything.
i find myself botter and emo-ful.
im disgusting and disturbing.

okay. blogging too long.
later you guys fall aslp.
boohoo. enough crap and rubbish. (x

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

i've applied and thats it mann.
do i stand a chance baby.
its so hard and i dont think i could even make it.
its not to my advantage. mann.

-vexed

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Saturday, February 10, 2007

THANK GOD.
I HAD DONE WELL IN MY Os.
L1R5 = 15 (13 with deduction of CCA 2 bonus points)
L1R4 = 12 (10 with deduction of CCA 2 bomus points)

the most surprising thing was that. i didnt expect myself to get A2 for combined humanities.
seriously when i was doing my social studies and history paper, i chanted to myself, "im so going to flunk this paper. im so going to fail. even if i dont fail, im so going to get the most C6."
haha. in the end.... so miraculous!!!!

well. some were quite disappointing.
for example, my emaths. expected myself to get A1 but in the end ive gotten an A2.
as for chinese, the first time i took, ive gotten a B3. so this time round when i retook, i expected myself to get a distinction. unfortunately, i failed to get what i want.
and for my amaths, i have confidence in getting an A. but i've gotten B3 in the end.

but nevertheless, God worked miracle for me this time round.
i studied at the last minute.
i "biah" the whole night before my paper. even before my paper began, i was still mugging.

and YES!
i passed my english well enough.
i expected myself to get D7 or the best, C5.
nothing more than that.
but God made me pass and im so happy with a B.
mrs raj came praising me. haha. :D
i felt so happy. its beyong description.

of course, the smart ass from my school is none other than christina suresh.
she's gotten 8As.
and guess what.
ALL WERE A1s. hahahaha. :D
then jialin, she has 9 subjects. and all were distinction.
haha. so proud of my friends. hahaha. :D

im happy. and they are happy.
and im happy! hahaha. (:

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Thursday, February 08, 2007

gsitmjoaeinvoe.

i am feeling more restrictions.
can i just do what i like?
i just dont want to take people's thoughts into consideration.
people's thoughts about me.
can i just forgo those thoughts???

i felt so intruded into my privacy.
all i want is just a question.
at least a a question to what you gonna do.
not just till i realised that that something was already done.
and i think i dont have an extra copy of it.
SOBB!!!!!

sigh. what is this turning into...... ):
lets discuss it. ):

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

mann. my moo-cells are aching.
thanks to teacher shaun.
haha. but i love. (:
cos i can really feel my inner thigh moo-cells now.
WHEE.

we were really high yest.
cos of the song GET HIGH.
mann. cutesy like people jumping and dancing yesterday.
even MS FOO. haha. we were on drugs.
cant believe. high till even until hiphop class ended, we were still executing jumps around the studio tgt. hahaha.
*FLIES

all right.
RICKY is not going to come today.
he cancelled class. hahaha. :D
im so like. BORED`

boredom is killing me.
but at least there's still msn and everything. (:

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

im working today, again.
and today is the MOST boring day ever.
there's only ONE class on every tues.
and today is tues.
poor deborah got bullied by ms jennifer low.
and so. i shall declare tuesday- LONELY TUESDAY!

--

i just had my lunch.
and it was a LONELY LUNCH.
and so. whatever im going to do, there'll be a "lonely" included.

--

probably my life for today is going to change.
haha. aaron chong is going to accompany me later!
hope he doesnt forget! haha. :D
because he walked past dancepointe. and he took a glance at the counter.
he saw me. but he continued walking.
then a cute face appeared in front of the glass door once again.
haha. smiling at me was THAT young boy, AARON CHONG.

--

know what. im going to have practice on every thurs for my coppelia show.
ok. coppelia production is going to be on 23rd, 24th and 24th of march.
this production is solely by singapore dance theatre.
so must come and watch!!! ((:
though i may just be an extra dancer needed by SDT, but its still a learning experience!! ((:
im so excited. hahahaha. :D

--

mann. aaron left already. he's going for swimming lesson.
and now, im back to square one.
but nevermind.
later RICKY will be here to teach salsa.
haha. im sure he'll make this day interesting. hahahahahahah. =X
im so mean.
only ballet people know. hahaah. (:
i was just being sacarstic. ^.^

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Sunday, February 04, 2007

back to update.

under 1 month's probation.
so after this 1 month, if i still dont improve, then i shall say BYEBYE to it.

feeling so SUPER WEAK now.
let the river flow baby. hah. :D

this coming week is getting exciting.
Os RESULTS will be announced most prob on fri. haha.

shall go for lunch now. im not hungry.
but he's coming to eat with me. how am i supposed to leave the counter? oh no.
shall eat at the counter. (:

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Saturday, February 03, 2007

once again. you lay these words in my mind.
though they are good for my character building. but seriously, as a human, i cant accept them, somehow.
probably some can. but definitely not i.
almost everyday, you are telling me not to be like what you dont want me to be.
im feeling rather tired of it already.

finding excuses not to call you?
definitely no.
in my own opinion, i dont find myself finding excuses to shun from your comments.
i did have my reasons on why i didnt call you the whole morning.
let me state my reason clear now.
my mom.

she wanted me to do this and that.
complaining i didnt do this and that.
demanding for a reason why i didnt do this and that.
was i supposed to those in the first place???
maybe yes. for vacuuming and mopping the floor and taking down the laundry.
but am i supposed to do them everyday?
definitely not mopping the floor which i dont need to do everyday.
vacuuming, yes. i did.
taking down the laundry?
i was lazy. thats y i got scolding from her this afternoon.
mopping the floor? i wasnt supposed to do this EVERY SINGLE day.
mann. isit dusty?

my mom is having a phobia.
fear of dust and dirt.
seriously. ):

back-track now.
yea. i was saying. i was feeling tired.
those words that were spoken through your lips.
you've proposed that didnt you.
its not your first time if i'd remembered. hmmm.

oh well. i cant decide now.
so vexed and everything.
hate thinking about it.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Thursday, February 01, 2007

many things happened for the past one week.
many disagreements. and yes. sometimes i really feel like giving up.
but i thought about it again. it was hard for us to get together.
both of us had tried so so so hard to be together. even to the extend of offering our helping hands to heal each others' bleeding wound.

i was so tired of quarreling and being unhappy and emo.
totally lost all the energy and even thought of going to chinese garden the other day to cool myself down. and also to reflect on myself.
unfotunately, i had a last minute work to do. my ballet teacher needed someone to tend the office at my dance school.
so didnt manage to go chinese garden in the end.
emo-ed for the whole week. and this was the new week for me. going on all right.
dont know whats going to happen next.
shall just take a step at a time. (:

OH NO.
im working fewer and fewer days!!!! this also means that im going to stay at home for more days. SIGH.
you know why im feeling so disappointed?
because whenever im home, i'll have to do ALLLLLL the housework. ):
not very tiring but tedious.
for example, vacuuming the floor; have to drag the vacuum cleaner wherever i go. its TEDIOUS.
the same action just goes on and on until the whole house is sparkling clean.

oh man. and last night, i'd gotten scolding from both my mom and my dad.
it was just a PEANUT, PEA matter.
and they made such a BIG fuss out of it.
really want to smack my head in front of them.
but failed. hahaahah. :D
im a timid little mouse. WHEE.
at least im little. unlike someone. so humongous.

working at dancepointe now. (:
laze for quite some time already. ((((: WOOPS.
haiya. there's nothing for me to do right now.
so decided to update my blog.

and there's a GOOD NEWS for everyone. (((:
im shortlisted for COPPELIA (dance production) that is organised by SINGAPORE DANCE THEATRE. im so overjoyed!!!! hahah. whee. lets see how i carry myself then. (^.^)
all the best to me. (:

- i just wanted to say ...# ;