Monday, November 28, 2005
[_faster faster faster!! =X_]
hees. im online agn. hee. well. i've done one of the compre. hee. well. quite well done. ehs.. //guilty// haha. Y huh. hees. some of them i looked at the answers to get the idea. haha. den i answer properly. LOL. cheat cheat cheat. =P
erms. feeling to bored. ltr gonna do the compre again. haha. one week do abt 4.. should b ok rite? hee. yea. den must do summary too. i noe those O level ppl dunnid. haha. soo good lor. im waiting fer the end of next year. but. i gonna work hard and end the next of the year well. really hope to end it well. end ma o lvl with FLYING COLOURS! i've e confidence to do well!
sometimes. the word 'friend' came into ma mind. cos.. i feel that ma friends arent too friend to me. yea. feeling out of place at times. now. i feel VERY out of place. so yea. i decided not to really tok to you guys. and not to even sae hi to you guys. yeps.
perhaps you guys may think tt im being 'dao' or wadever.. but you guys are oso being 'dao' to me. pretended tt i dun exist.
now.. u recruited 2 more ppl who replaced me and [other]. so yea. perhaps im thinking too much. or mayb its bcos of ma mom. but well. duno y i suddenly tot of this. perhaps im just being too bored. and wana blog bout smthg. hmms.
fer so many occasions.. you guys went out like nobodii's business. me and [other] felt sooo left out. hmm. duno la. ferget it. =)) *smile* //filled with jealously//
-----"happy" holiday-----
i wana go out!! hees. wan go KBOX.. wan go ESCAPE.. wan go BEACH. wan go SUNTAN~! hahas. wana do alot of things. hmms. hee. nvm. i cant go out. haish. sickening. =S
fine fine fine fine.
boo.. ah gong is back today. haha. AH GONG! got buy chewing gum fer me?? hee. LOL.
bored. got nthg to do but to chat. ltr gotta go do english. hee. must work hard den you enjoy ltr. haha. chinese saying.. //xian ku hou tian//
haha. trying to put this phrase in me. hee. yea.
OH! ma bro's 1 year with jazreel is coming!!! haha. 30th of november. haha. ok ok. SHUT UPP.. later they SHY SHY. haha. =PPP
tink i go off 1st. byebye!
muacks!
-hugs
[ e no longer innocent DEBORAH ] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Saturday, November 26, 2005
just watched THE EXORCISM OF EMILY ROSE with teetee. its was an inspiring yet horrifying one. this was the story of this gal, emily rose, who was possessed by this demon called Nabial. (if im not wrong) the priest called richard moore helped to get the demon out of emily. it was said in the movie that richard moore had caused the death of emily rose. cos emily rose had epilepsy and psychological disorders. she was supposed to carry on with her medication. however, richard moore did not think in this way as he himself is a priest and he believed tt emily rose had been possessed by a demon. thus, richard moore told her that medication wont help.
one night. at 3am. emily smelt a burning smell. thus she woke up and went out of her room to check it out. when she was out. the door behind her banged and banged. (that really horrified me!) she felt extremely afraid.. yet she went to the door and stopped it from banging. it stopped. she went back to her room. laid on her bed and the pencil holder on her study table moved. moving to the edge of the table and it fell. slowly.. her blanket was pulled away from her. her bed sanked and she felt high pressure in her.
the demon had possessed her. in her class, she could see the demon at the window. she could even imagine her classmates to b a demon--> black liquids falling from the eyes and nose and mouth (pictures were horrible!)
walking in the streets, wherever she walks, she see ppl with black liquids falling from their eyes and nose and mouth. she went to church.. it was the same, seeing devilish visions. when jason, her fren, saw her from e telephone booth outside the church, went in and looked fer her as he saw walking in the church nervously and afraidly. when he was in the church calling out fer emily, emily stretched out her arm and her body was like, out of control. she bent all the wae back-->90 degrees (oh my gosh!!) jason called her name and emily screamed back. (soo scary!)
day by day, her condition worsened. richard moore decided to exorcise her. the demon just wldnt want to leave her. it was said in the movie tt one day, emily woke up from her slp as she heard someone out there calling fer her. she went out into the snow and fell to the ground. her spirit, i believe, came out of her and ask Mother Mary fer help. she asked why wouldnt the demon leave her. Mother Mary said smth like the demon wont leave her. she would need to accept her fate. but she'll b called to the Lord and enter the Heaven's gates. thus she chose to accept her fate and oso to accept the sufferings. cos no matter wad. she'll b called to the Lord.
she trusted in God so much that she decided to leave everything to God. and let God take control of her life.
wells. if you want to noe more bout wad's gg on.. go catch the movie! haha. its really nice. its not ordinary scary. its not fiction. its non-fiction! and its a true story!!! yes. is A T-R-U-E STORY.
you guys should go and watch it. me and teetee watched it. it was really good. you can really feel God's presence. as in. you'll really feel God. i felt God's love. i duno.. i guess so. wells. its really an inspiring story. and its oso a story which can move you to tears.
teetee was moved to tears! hees. woops =x
wells. todae ma mom good mood i guess. hahas. and its a good thing. i mean its like bcos she let me to go and watch movie.. or bought me a pair of white shoes means she's good. but hmms. i duno how to put. wells. she's been better. or mayb she's been good. but perhaps.. wad rachel said is true. wells. u guys duno how i actually feel. u guys duno wad my mom's like. she's hot tempered. loves to nag. wells. that's wad ALL mothers do.. yea. =/ (its a bad thing too! =/)
hmms.
RACHEL:
i did gave it a thought. so yea. i already tried to apply your words into ma life. yea. thanks anyway. =)
wells. i guess you guys must b wanting to catch the movie no matter wad huh. hahas. GO AND WATCH IT! its really nice.
its NOT ordinary scary ok. haha. its like a true story. so yea. a fear will develop in you. i guess everyone who watches the movie will feel it tt wae? hmms. fear not! haha.
RMB!
DUN BE HORRIFIED!!!!! HAHA. MAY GOD BE WITH YOU. HAHAS. =DDDD
i think tt's all barhz. yea. hee. takkaire ppl.
muacks.
hugs.
[[[[deborahhhh...```]]]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
hmm. these few days. its filled w problems. esp ma mom. i really can do nothing. and she ground me!!! that's the worst thing tt can ever happen to me! =S
im so sad. oh no. oh mann. i'll only be able to stay at home to study and pick up on ma studies. the most only go online and find ppl to chat. im leading such a boring life~ oh mann.
BOREDOM!!!
hmm. sadist la. no one is willling to tok on the phone with me. i mean they must hab their activities. .and my only activity is to stay at home and rot.. darn.. haish.
thanks fer all your tags. i noe ppl are reading. they can dun read it wad. i m just venting ma anger. and anywae. this is the only place tt i can vent ma anger. this is my one and only place.. yup. i cant possibly scold ma sis/ my mom/ ma dad/ ma bro at home rite? (OBVIOUSLY)
argh. fed up.
but aniway. todae. i settled ma own lunch. haha. so funny. LOL. cos i decided to fry rice today fer ma lunch. got nthg to do wad. so i decided to fry rice. haha. i heat ma frying pan first. i turned the fire on to the highest and the biggest flame. whahaha~
guess wad. aft i pour oil.. the whold pan went.
WHOOFFF!!!
haha. it was on FIRE!! haha. i was so shocked! luckily dint burnt myself. haha. i told ma maid to pour water to mie the fire. haha. den she wanted to put the wet cloth. i stopped her. den the fire went on. haha. den i sae pour water. den she sae put wet cloth. den she put. haha. den the fire was being put out by TODAY'S HEROINE!!! ma maid. haha. =D
ma fried rice isnt tt bad either. yea. ma sis finished ma fried rice. she said it was nice!! haha. of cos mann. i fry wan ma. haha.
THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!
hee. yea yea. LOL.
im so bored. think bout ma mom.. eh. hope someone out there will help and hope someone will tok her round. hmm. i dun wan ma closest frens to leave me.. just because of some misunderstandings. haish.
and i hate it when she keeps on making assumptions!!!
ARGH~ OH MANN.
leading a screwed up life. why cant she just b understanding??? ARGH!!!
going to b a LUNATIC soon!!!!
OH MANN!
---------------wadever----------------- - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Saturday, November 19, 2005
WAHLAO?!
what is wrong with you ma GOSH!!!!! i dint even gave that look to you. you said i gav tt look to you. WTH is WRONG with you????????
you said you are v scared of mii.. are you being sacarstic or WHAT????!!?!?!?!?! im just listening.. and yet you spike ME FIRST!! arent you being BIASED? arent you practising favouritism?? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU??
wadever kor asked you. you would gladly let him be. WAD ABOUT MI? just bcos i did EXTREEEEEEEMMMEELLLYYY BADLY fer ma exam?? did you ever recall bout kor's results???? he did as badly too!!!! y did you scold mi and not scold him? you said you DID NOT hold ANY GRUDGES.. well. you did not to others. BUT YOU DID TO ME!!! you HELD EVERY SINGLE GRUDGE ON ME! cant you just go think about it?????
you just hab to use your BUTT to think. dun EVEN need to use your BRAIN!!!!
ARGH.
you said i dint respect you. DID YOU EVEN RESPECT ME IN THE FIRST PLACE?!?!?!?!
wadEver i do. wadever i plan. you would giv all sorts of excuses.. you would object.. den if i follow(wad i alwaes did) your wae. you would sae.. this is just a suggestion. you need not EVEN LISTEN. WTH? wont you just tell mi to NOT GO?!?!?! trying to test mi out huh? WTH?!?!?!
i cant stand it annimore!! you said.. everytime i wana go out. i just hab to ask dad and not ask you. den you said tt wo bu ba ni fang zai yan li. HOW DO YOU WAN ME TO BA NI FANG ZAI YAN LI??????? you dint even respect mi. you dint even liked mi. WAD YOU WAN MI TO DO?!?!?
i tried to please you times and times. and times and times.. you are trying to SHOOT ME! WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT???
you told mi not to go out. i accepted.
you told mi not to do this, not to do that.. i FOLLOWED!!!
WHAT THE HELL????????????
you said i gav you attitude. i m being cold to you... WHO DARES TO TOK TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE LIKE THAT??!?!?!?!?
HOW DO YOU WAN ME TO RESPECT YOU WHHEN U DID NOT EVEN SET A GOOD EXAMPLE AND RESPECT YOU???????
I BET YOU ARE A CHRISTIAN. and YET you smokes. EVERY SINGLE DAE?!?!?!
you are harming EVERY ONE ELSE in the HOUSE!!!!!!
one dae we'll just die JUST BECAUSE WE ARE PASSIVVE SMOKERS!!!
papa smokes. i KNOW!!!! but where he smokes??? he smokes outside!!! NOT IN THE HOUSE!!!
BUT YOU SMOKES IN THE HOUSE!! EVERYTIME YOU BATHE, YOU SMOKES!!!
I JUST HATE PEOPLE WHO SMOKES. BUT ONLY TO THOSE WHO SMOKES IN THE HOUSE! GOT IT!!!
i admit tt i only respect papa. so wad if i did?? you jealous or wad? felt not being respected?? all i can sae is tt u deserve it!!!!
you treated me like nobodii's business.. who can i tok to??? papa??? HOW I WISHED I CAN!!! he's so busy.. and he has no time fer us. yes. you are right. wad he can do is just to PROVIDE US WITH MONEY!!! he's having TWO jobs because of ME!!! because of ma ballet. RIGHT?
you MUST B THINKING.. im the one who cause papa to hab TWO jobs. cos ballet is sooo expensive. im the one who cause papa to gamble on soccer. so.. IM ALWAES IN THE WRONG!
WHO CAN I TOK TO THEN??? the only people i can tok to are church ppl. are my FRIENDS! and kor. NO ONE ELSE WOULD EVEN LISTEN TO ME.
you said i can go around telling ppl.. wad can i do then??? keep it inside me? till one dae i become a lunatic??? NO WAE.
FOR SOO MANY YEARS.. eversince y ou gav birth to ma sis.. you neglected me. the only person i felt love is from ma dad and kor. did you ever give something to me willingly???? DID YOU???
it is only papa hu gav everything to anibodii willingly..
come on. just look at how you treat aunty..
although she's a new maid.. HOW DO YOU TREAT HER??? YOU CAN JUST SCOLD HER AND SCOLD HER AND SCOLD HER FOR NOT DOING THINGS PROPERLY!!!
sometimes i wished i could help ma maid to sae something. but i noe u'll scream till the window glass break. you will just scream and the WHOLE DAMN building to collapse!!!
you can just scold me fer no reason. WTH?
sometimes.. i just wonder.. why can t you just treat me a little better? so tt i can respect you. and not to gib you attitude?
sometimes.. when u confronted kor. and kor gib you attitude.. you can just accept it. you would just keep quiet you wouldnt scold him or wadever..
OBVIOUSLY RIGHT?!?!?!
cos kor will surely fight back. cos u ZHONG NAN QING NU!!! you will just let him freely sae wad he wants.
wad i got from you is wad you'll get from me.
at times. i asked you nicely.. wad i got from you is.. NO!
at times i asked you nicely. yup. you did sae yes. but u guess wad? you unwillingly sae yes!
so how do you wan me to ask you nicely??????? wad did i get in the end?? only when go out with sally leeling xingti they all. you would sae yes! wad about my frens??? you HATE THEM TO THE CORE!!! DINT YOU?!?!?! YOU DARE TO SAE YOU DINT????
take fer example.. crystal. eunice. angela. jessica. sheryl.
dint you alwaes forbid me to go out with them? dint you hate them to hell?
im here to sae some good words fer MY FRENS!
my frens are ma frens. they should be respected. you shouldnt sae he or she is no good whether you liked it or not.
you shouldnt judge them EITHER!!!!! take for example crystal. SHE'S A DARN NICE GIRL. AND SHE"S MA BEST FREN.. SHE'S OnE WHO IS A VERY GOOD AND DISCIPLINED GIRL.
guess wad you said about her? you said she BADLY INFLUENCED me. i asked why??? gues wad ans you gav mii????????? YOU SAID SHE ALWAES ASK ME TO GO OUT. so this is why she's bad huh?
she's not like wad you said!!! ARGH.
i stil got soo much more to sae. but im tired to type them all out here, now.
im so FED UP.
aniwae. i need to go and prepare le. HAISH. IM TIRED. =/
[[debb*]]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Friday, November 11, 2005
wad an unpleasant dae. duno WTH they wan?!?!?!
darn fed up larh!
when i came back home, ok la. stil quite fine. hmm. den aft dinner. i wanted to use com. den ma dad ask mi w a VERY UNHAPPI and BUI SHONG temper. den i was like. ok la. fine lor. wan tok to mi like this. den fine lor. he was askin fer my report bk. but i was like.. huh.oh. hmm. actually he ask if i got anithing to show him. but i know he surely wants ma report book. since todae is the last dae of school. yep. and so i did.
i took it out of ma bag. quickly put the NAPFA test results right behind ma EOY results. haha. SMART MI. and when he was like looking at my report book results.. i was like. "die alrd die alrd!!!"
but i cooled myself down. i told myself tt i hab plans. yea. anyway. ma prnts oso duno wad were ma plans even if i tell them. so i might as well dun tell them. waste time. waste saliva. waste energy.
this time round.. i failed only 3 sub. altogether. mid yr i failed 4 sub. hope by next year, i will not fail any of them. yea. L1R5 improved by 2 pts. tt is like. not enuf la. [obviously]
but well. he was like.. wan scold mi tt kinda pattern. and there's one particular sentence he said made mi VERY ANGRY!!!
ARGH. he said wad.. all your discussions and revisions with your frens.. its USELESS!!! i was like.. only you think its useless. den he was like trying to imply tt i dint study. only chit chat w my frens. well. i got nthg to sae. my conscience is SUPER DUPER CLEAR. i really did study. and it was quite useful. at least i try to maintain it.
if i improve.. he wont sae anithing. but well he'll pick ma poor sub. to sae. hmm. well i really got no comments.
if i deprove he scolds mi.
if i maintain.. he'll sae. so lousy.. dint even improve!!!
yea. and if i improve.. he'll pick out ma poorer sub.
yea. so is like. wadever i get fer my exams.. it'll NEVER satisfy ma parents. yea. tt's all i know.
so yea. hmm. i just try to get as many As as possible.
PROVE MY PARENTS WRONG!!!
HMPH!
hmm. now watching the tv.. new chinese serial. haha. soo nice. its abt dance.
yep yep. sooo nice. they dance very nice!!!! i oso wan to b like them! heheh.
well todae. school pass quite fast fer mi. but well. i've goto bring home soooo soooo sooo many books ok!!!
yea. and i took 174. went to JP and then i msged ma dad to pick mi up at JP. cos i really got soo many things to bring home!!! haha.
yea. ate porridge fer ma dinner.. quite nice. but quite bland oso. haha. but its ok. healthy. =))
think i wan to blog here. haha.
hugs-
muacks -.-
[[deb`__tt's me!]]]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
hello. oh no.. haha. im sick..
im so lucky. LOL. hab to write an essay fer VP. and i haven write.. im so dead.. real dead.
im supposed to hand it in todae. but i dint write!!! i had forgotten!!! hmm. OH NO.
today. quite ok.. 1st lesson.. combined humans. i wrote letter instead of listening to teacher. haa. woops! =x but aniwae i going to drop it alrd wad. so yea. i dun intend to listen to her class.
2nd lesson..
emaths.. ok la. dint do ma hw!! oh no. haha. but i'll complete them during e holis. yea. hmm. den hab recess. ate rice. n.. aft recess..
had emaths again. hmm. today. had FOUR periods of emaths today!!! but overall it was quite ok. and not tt boring aftall.
3rd lesson.. pure humans. ok la. get to watch movie or smthg. haha.
quite -timefull- eh. meaning tt we can spend alot of time. den not start on new chpts.hee.
den i wait fer ma fren. so i went fer emaths remedial. im not supposed to b in la. but i got nthg to do. and i dun wana waste time. so yea. decided to go there and help ma emaths..
den we went home. hee. yup. =)) so tired todae.
came back. had a bath. and i fell aslp. LOL.
think tt's all i gg to blog fer todae. got nthg to blog abt todae. yea.
tt's it.
haha
takkaire everybodii. LOL.
buaiz.
hugs----
[[`debbiieee.-]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Monday, November 07, 2005
yo peeps.
im alwaes bored. haha. here to sae tt im bored.
todae.. im supposed to hav a tea w ma VP. yea. but in the end she had to meet other parents. thus. i dint meet her. but i waited fer her like sooo long. actually the first time i went to find her. but she wasnt in her room. she was in principal's room. yea. so they were like busy discussing. so yea. i went back to the canteen. and i waited. had a cup of noodles. and i went back to find her. she was already meeting those parents. so i dint get to meet her todae.
but i stil hav to meet her tmr morning. at about 8.. yea. so early. haha. but better than after school. hee.
came home aft school. and i was doing my amaths.
finished doing it already.. yeah.. haha. it was kinda easy to do. haha. cos i understand how to do it ma. tt's y its quite easy to do and finish them. heheh.
had dinner.. and my dad was telling mi those stuffs tt ma VP told them.. -->ma mom and ma dad.
well. he just said i did not do well. i did BADLY!!!
i know it. well. i already jue ding to work very hard and b v serious in my work.
i guess my parents will NEVER believe mi tt im willing to work hard.
OBVIOUSLY RIGHT??? they will only think tt wad i had revised are just all rubbish.. meeting to revise are just all crap. and we are just toking and chit chatting. well.
all i can sae is that --- YOU ARE ALL WRONG
i tried ma best to do well. put in ma fullest. trying hard to get As.. fer ma subjects.
they just wldnt know how hard the papers were!!!
they just DUNO wad my life is abt!!!
the reason is very simple.
they doesnt like mi.. they are practically bias against mi..
theye just like ma brother la.
OBVIOUSLY RIGHT?!?!?!
cos my brother did well in his poly exams??? yea. at least a B?!?! WTH.
haish. i noe i cant b as smart as ma bro
cant b as independent as ma bro. i know ALL THAT! im just a USELESS FREAK. darn it.
but i noe it myself can already rite? i noe im going to work really hard next year.
its really up to them to believe. and i rather go to combined science. well.
well only my frens noe i going to work extremely hard fer it. though i think i can only go to poly. haha. yea. my parents duno wad im thinking. cos only ma frens know mi well.
my world seems to hab only frens. frens and only frens.
they are the only ppl i trust.
tt's abt it.
todae.. isnt a bad dae aftall. haha.did experiments. yep. was fun. and enriching.hee. =))
yup.think tt's all about it.
yea. takkaire ppl.
and i wana wish all the o level-ers good luck.
i'll be praying fer you people!!!
hah.
muacks.
[debb`[[[ girl ]]]`''] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Friday, November 04, 2005
hey!
haha. im still the same i think. feeling empty. well. will over soon i hope. =)
gettting back to todae. surprisingly, i dun feel slpy today!!! yup. wondering y too. moreover, i slept late yest.. i slpt at.. 12 plus going 1am.. and i woke up at 6.40am. of cos i woke up late. and yea. i was rushing.. and i only slpt fer the most 6hrs? ya. but normally i slpt fer 6 hrs or so, i felt very slpy! but dunow ad happen to me todae. haha.
but it was a good thing. i was really listening to EVERY lesson. wow.. even the subject i hated the most!!!----history
muahaha. LSB must b wondering y i was so attentive today.. haha.
as i said.. i woke up late today. den i reached school at 8.20am. and guess wad??
it was ms siti's lesson. haha. went to practical lab.. gues wad i saw? many ppl standing outside the lab. and most of them were the guai-kias in ma class. haha. like.. SALINA. class monitress somemore! allysa. ass class monitress. den van.kuek. the top scorer fer both sciences? yea. and joey.. the pro fer sci and maths.
muahahha. but the practical was fun. and i learnt something todae. haha.
yea. aft school.. i ate fried rice.. it was heavenly.. haha.
and now. i ate fried rice again.. haha. but this time one is home cooked.
but its stil nice.. haha.
later hab to go to hosp to visit ma grandfather.. he's sick..
dint not hab enuf water.. and w/o water he cant eat. tt's y he become very skinny suddenly!! LOL. hmm. yea. just hope tt he'll b alright. yea. =))
pray fer him yea? hee. thanks. ^.^
think tt's all i wana sae. hmm. bored. sad. ARGH..
ok ok.
byebye.
takkaire peeps.
[debb`]]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
hey peeps..
yea. long time never blog. nthg much to blog. cos i've got NOTHING to sae TOTALLY.
not very happi these few daes.. have to end it anywae. but those memories will b in ma heart.haha. tt's all. i guess tt's practically all i wana sae.
this PARTICULAR THING.. is against EVERY christian. so i dun find any point in holding it. and i dun think it'll last aniwae.
sobx.
everybodii will struggle. THAT's THE TRUTH-IEST OF THE TRUTH. there's really nothing tt both of us can sae.
we dun deny. but we promise. everything will just be the same.. ----> as in the dae we met. everything will just start from there.
hey [ren]
you concentrate in your studies.
aft o levels den struggle.. struggle wadever you want. haha. you can b a MAD person if you wan to. i'll b too. haha. i'll b like FENG PO ZI. haha.
i'll start my life afresh..
and moreover.. next year will b my crucial year..
O' LEVELS!!! tt's wad everbodii yearns fer..
everybodii will b like.. O LEVELS!!! quickly finish.. haha.
den will hab LOTS of free time. yea.
i've to concentrate..
I WILL..
no matter wad happens.. i'll stand strong. you too. yea? hee.
takkaire.
though its not a happii ending..
but they'll b sweeett memoriess tt'll just stay in ma heart..
oh yea.. ma dad is exercising.. haha. doing sit-ups. haha. mayb he's too stress..
cos i dint do well in ma EOY..
and my VP wana see my prnts.
yea. he's v stressed nowadaes. and oso cos ma grandfather was admitted to hospital yest.. yea. if i dun rmb wrongly.
yea..
my dad just had a VERY LONG AND LOUD BURP.. hee. *laughing*
okies. NOTHING IS FINE NOW.
PERHAPS... NEXT TIME WILL B BETTER FER MII??
HOPE SO.. ;/
byebye.. hee.
[[ deb`..]]]] - i just wanted to say ...# ;
