LIFE MATTERS?

Saturday, March 31, 2007

HIGHLIGHTS OF THE DAY
-rudolph the red nose reindeer (its normal, so deborah, its ok!)
-new photo studio (excited!)
-the bus driver (wierd encounter)

i officially the rudolph the red nose reindeer!
luckily ive got my cap to block my nose a little.
(:
well. im used to it. its not like ive never gotten before!
though it really sucked.

worked today at my cousin's shop.
they are going to make a small photo studio soon!
whoo~ im so excited to what its going to become! (8
nothing much. just tried to enhance the photos. (only pros are allowed to do that)
well, i was just playing with it. (x

after work, went home with sok ling, my fav senior worker!
haha. she's super lame with her chinese messages!
reached boon lay and darted my way up 242.
found a place to sit&rest.
took a look at my watch and realised it was still early.
so i decided to take a BIG round inorder for me to not cross the road and rest more!
242 is a feeder bus.
halfway through the journey when i had my eyes closed, the bus driver stopped his bus, left his driver's seat and walked up to me and gave me a tap.
GUESS WHAT HE ASKED?!?!
arent you going to alight??
first time in my many trips on 242, i got this kind of driver who actually noticed his passengers!
dont i always take a big round and alight at the bus stop opposite from where i was supposed to alight so i dont have to cross the road.
you know, as you grow older, you'll tend to be more lazy.
even a few steps or just to cross a road is a CHORE for you.

sorry honey, for not sparing a thought for you.
take care honey. i love you always. (8

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Friday, March 30, 2007

another bad day of the year.
was just wondering how many bad days will i have this year?
last year ive got many of it.
they were all life issues.
they just suck to the core.

shant elaborate more. but i would like to highlight a little of it.
well. it was just like a heated controversy on whether i should go for NPSU camp.
oh well. seriously, i really feel like attending the camp.
not because of anything particular but just PURELY for fun and enjoyment.
however, xiang heard it from past experiences that NPSU camp is just an event for guys to MOLEST girls.
must be wondering WTH?!?!
but yea. many can vouch it.
ah, after so much rubbish happening (my fault), i decided not to go for the camps already.
to satisfy everybody and prevent myself from getting "TOUCHED" by guys there.

my knuckle is seriously bruised.
xiang accidentally hit my hand against the wall on the mrt platform.
DARN.
its darn painful.
its swollen i guess.

justine and i left the platform as we had to go for ballet.
oh well. ballet class was pushed back to 4pm instead of the earlier 3pm.
because many TROUBLESOME NJC people couldnt come at 3pm.
so ms foo just brought it backwards.
today's class didnt favour anyone.
especially me.
today's class was just rubbish.
i wasnt square on my hips doing attitude and arabesque and led to ms foo's ringing question on whats wrong with me.
all of us were just feeling lethargic.
especially me. i didnt have the mood to dance at all.
neither did i have the energy to hold my body.
the only wonderful thing that ALWAYS excites me is pirouttes.
haha. :D
i can really be hyper doing it.
kelly and justine can vouch it. (:
i miss kelly. seriously.
oh well. but someone misses kelly more.
HAHA. THAT PERSON IS NONE OTHER THAN NG WAH CHUN. HAHA!
--
too bad coppelia's plan wasnt successful. =X

i'd cried enough.
i dont want to cry anymore.
i dont want to cry anymore over you, over this relationship.
you unwillingly forced me to leave you, i couldnt.
how i wished some things can just end with a snap at your fingers.
but things arent easy like that.
though there will be sufferings, im willing to bear them.
this can be contradicting, but when you are in the situation yourself, you can find yourself understanding it. like me for now.
let no tears fall because of you.
please honey. i just want to be happy.
if you want to die, kill me first.
if you want to bang your whatever body parts against the wall, let me do it first.
if you want to slit your wrists, i'll do the same.
ive done those before and i will do it if you do.
im NOT kidding with you.
let no emotions take over you.
you are supposed to be the one taking over your own emotions.
you are a weakling, you claimed. i can vouch for it.
i can proudly say that im emotionally stronger than you.
probably thats me. i tend to forget things easily.
but when things accumulate, there'll going to be a disaster.
but for now, things havent started accumulating.
luckily.
so dont even let it start.
i will try my very best to end all unhappiness.
but it takes TWO hands to clap.
hope you'll work with me.
dont be to possessive, i advise.
baby, i love you so.
thats why it hurts me seeing you sobbing and fighting hard against the problem like that.
try another way. it might help. (:
love you baby.

nearly lost my ring today. was working at dancepointe and jenn asked me to pack stuffs for the younger girls' upcoming exam.
my ring fits my forth finger loosely, so it dropped in the cupboard at the counter today.
luckily ms foo found it.
know what, i couldnt even feel it wasnt on my fingers!
WHAT A DUMB DEBORAHLOOMINYI ON EARTH!!!
then ms foo suaned me. saying that she shouldnt pack the things because she'll loose her ring too.
WHATEVER. (8

went home and started crying over the phone again.
SIGH. never ending.
oh well. finally can wipe the sweat off my head.
everything is fine and peaceful now.
just want to thank JUSTINEKWANYITING for being such a good and thoughtful friend to stand up for me and raised up her opinions.
i really do appreciate that. (:
LOVE YOU GIRL.
see you on sunday! ^.^

working tmr at kodak. (:
haha. whee. :D

-life still goes on....

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

TAKEN DURING COPPELIA!

jamie with her beautiful leg. and please notice me, taking a nap before the performance. i was so tired!

jasmine and her friend came to support gan pin. and i. (:

qiaoyi (acting pretty),jamie (in pink), vivien (MAID) and i (labelled 'hours').

my turn to be the maid.

jamie's hand is the fattest.

saki and the three of us.

my legs are the darkest. mine;ganpins;jamie's. (:

i seriously miss COPPELIA SEASON!

missed the fun. and now, coppelia season is over, ive got nothing to do now. so i missed all the fun! sigh. ):

swan lake. please come. im like. missed the company dancers and company classes!!!

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

woke up super late, so ended up, the subsequent events were all behind time.
well. deborah still made it!
prepared my own breakfast (some biscuits & cup of coffee).
headed down to NP with dear to take a look at laptop roadshow at convention centre.
well. not intending to buy ACER as they are too expensive and not appealing.
heard that if ACER is down, you've got to bring it all the way down to somewhere quite far to service it.

oh. but nevermind. intending to buy these quite-lightweight laptop.
one of those is LEVONO (IBM). weighs about 2.1kg.
the other is FUJITSU. weighs only 1.8kg.
about 2K.
mann. how am i going to afford it?? ):
this question has always been ringing in my head.

then head down to dancepointe to join the grade 8s for class.
had some little hiccups with bf.
well. class was not shiok.. ):
because it was too cold. i cant dance.
CANT DANCE AT ALL.

the exciting part is here. after grade 8, ms foo decided to head down to jurong west and take a look at the place at the new swimming complex.
HAHA.
ms foo's car was with uncle lance. so shaun lent her his MAZDA 3.
most of us know that MAZDAs have HUGE bodies.
ms foo is driving a honda, which is much smaller in size i comparison with shaun's mazda. haha!
so, we got into the car all ready to leave.
then ms foo did many attemps to drive out that mazda as she claimed that there wasnt any space for her to go out.
--
just to reverse the huge car took about 20-25 mins.
haha. all she did was, reverse, go a little forward, reverse, and found it a failure and head back into the lot.
so waileng, girlfriend and i and of course ms foo, experienced this many times in this nearly half hour duration.
i guess, from afar, this pro uncle came along to help giving ms foo directions to just get SHAUN'S MAZDA out of the parking lot.
and ms foo made it.
*clap clap*

the place there is very beautiful!!!
haha. and huge. but too bad, the windows there cant be opened, and so, it MUST BE air conditioned.
for dancing, its definitely NOT GOOD.
i like non air conditioned environment.
much better to dance. and of course, you'll be warmed up and all ready to put up a good show. (:

hiphop was quite boring.
today shall be my last class.
shant continue hiphop till my financial status improves.
so for now. i stop (:

ballet should be enough for me. (:

i miss choongruixiang!

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Monday, March 26, 2007

THE END

first of all, coppelia ended last night, thats a cruel truth.
which means, im more free, which means, ive got more time to do housework (no more excuses), which means, im going to stay at home most of the time.
which means, im going to miss my friends ('hours' dancers), which means, im going to miss all the crazy moments we made up together, which means, no more walking to PS together to eat subway, no more walking to funan to eat taco bell and food junction food, no more walking to raffles city to buy starbucks and spinelli coffee! and no more imitations of coppelia!!!
in other words, without coppelia, no more company classes, which means, no more having classes with SDT dancers! (toru, zoulin, haiying, sakura, alex,chen peng, zhao jun, kellie, jacez, xiaomi, alpha, shu yi, grace, bryan, chen wei, JEFFREY and the list goes on..)
i can actually remember their places. SOB!

oh well, back at home, feeling so empty without rehearsals and company classes. trying to adapt to it now. (:
the lead dancers did amazingly well.
example, ZHOU LIN!!.
she wabbles quite often when we were having rehearsals. but during the performance, she seldom wabble! only one major mistake, she couldnt lift her leg to arabesque from a retire position. (on pointe, mind you.)
so cant be blamed. but all her "FIFTHS" were there. mann. so pretty!

kellie. her jumps were good. PRETTY! shes always good. so nothing special to comment on.

toru, a young, charming and promising dancer, who was given this opportunity to take up this lead role of FRANZ. haha. and he did pretty well.
on the last night of coppelia, he did three fouete turns in ala seconde! haha. thats really wonderful.
he told me that he was really shock when he himself did three turns!
he claimed that he was saying to himself, "aiya, dont bother!" and he just went, TURN TURN TURN.
it "WOW" us. all of our eyes lit up. HAHA!
*applause*

people i really miss.
GAN PIN
JAMIE KOH
JONI
YUMIKO
QIAO YI
VIVIEN
JO HSI
GERMAINE
XIULI
JAIME PANG
SIN YEE (sacarstic stage manager)
TWIN BROTHERS
PAUL (his classes)
MUHD NOOR (he always "scare" us with his "POM!")
COMPANY DANCERS
- OF COURSE, JEFFREY TAN.

just love this 1&1/2 months of staging cum rehearsals.
so fun and pretty enjoyable!
thanks for making my day.
and want to thank so many people for coming to support me despite playing a small role. (:

got to go and get my laptop. (:
blog soon. ^.^

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Friday, March 23, 2007

its beyond belief that COPPELIA is tmr!
ITS TOMORROW!
well, first show. its getting REALLY exciting!

im so going to visit a physio-therapist.
im so tight everywhere; hurt my muscles and stuff; joints everything feel so loose.
managed to use inner thigh muscles! WHAHA.
its every dancer's SO-CALLED-DREAM to use inner thigh muscles.
for example, my ballet mates.
we arent trained for using those muscles.
DARN IT.
i want simple, technical training!!!

read gan pin's blog.
WOAH. so going to miss her, jaime, vivien, joni after coppelia's over.
and also, sinyee's heavy sacarsm like what gan pin says.
haha. (:
its really cool and fun working with those people at SDT.
and dance with company dancers. OH WELL.
they must be thinking, "BETTER NOT DANCE, ITS TOO EMBARRASSING FOR US TO BEAR!"

sighs. nevertheless, we will still do our very best.

things to do after coppelia.
- visit physiotherapist
- pluck out my injured toe nails
- massage my muscles
- go for workout
- shop ( if possible )

comments about today.
HAHA.
did double pirouettes today for every exercise.
unable to balance properly (WABBLES WABBLES) while doing centre work (PONCHE).
-BLEAH.
around of applause to my foete turn! (only left leg)
lousy DANCE OF THE HOURS at full-dress rehearsal. (TIMINGs WERE ALL WRONG!)
my hair was super neat.
gan pin's hair was miraculously NEAT. *CLAP CLAP*
my hair too. NEAT TO THE MAX. jaime and gan pin can vouch that. (:
TORU TALKED TO US! (qiaoyi and i). -gan pin, reading this?? haha. jealous or envy, choose one (: -

school is starting soon. (16 APR)
know what. im going to have many friends there! WOOTS!
and YES!
people who are going to be there.
-GIRLFRIEND!
-justine
-gan pin
-jane ho (i guess, heard that she got into the same course, BFs, as me.)
-dear dear!!! haha. (8

gotta buy my laptop.
mann. the registration thing is super duper troublesome!
bloody hell. dont know whats going on.
WHERE'S MY SAVIOR???
*vroom*
he's here. HAHA. :D
and he's always here.
i just love him many many.
miss him many many too.

and YES! he's watching my performance tmr! with meijun.
oh wells.
i forgot to order tickets for david and xingti jiejie! MANN.
so forgetful.
ok. shall do it early in the morning tmr. so that uncle adrian can print the tickets out. HAHA. (:

deborah did well today.
continue.
swan lake in dec.
im going to attend the audition. haha. :D
SWANS HERE AND SWANS THERE.
crap crap.
same thought as gan pin.
WILL BE VERY WILLING TO SUFFER FROM BODY ACHES!
*laughs.

long entry.
but just too long didnt blog.
it tempted me to do so instead of having my sleep. HAHA. :D

i love my dear!
miss him so much. (:
take many many pics tmr girls.
love you guys. (:

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

MY FIRST CHOICE

BANKING AND FINANCIAL SERVICES.

upon receiving a sms from my mom saying, "call me.", i felt rather a sudden frustration running through me.
this is what i always feel when my mom messages me.
for reasons such as scolding me and giving me a good nag.

i was travelling in the bus from SDT to victoria theatre for spacing rehearsal.
hence, with low spirits, i returned a call to my mom.
with those frequently asked questions such as have you eaten? what housework did you do today? what time are you going home? what time you finishing?, im seriously irritated.
dont ask me why, because thats what MOST teenagers always feel.

however, things changed this time round.
she was slowly disclosing the piece of good news to me.
HAHA. saying you know, NP has send a letter to me.
and she was REALLY excited and opened up to read it, hoping that i was being accepted! haha. :D
indeed, i was!

before she even disclosed it to me, my heart was palpitating really fast.
doubting myself in getting in to banking and financial services.
WHY???
because this morning, xiang brought me to NP and asked the person directly to see if DAE posting are out.
well. she said no. and told us the cut-off points for the courses id applied.
banking and financial services = 11
business studies = 13
early childhood = 15
was actually thinking that i might not be in for BFs. well. the acceptance letter proved my wrong! and so, im in to banking and financial services and follow my cousin's footsteps.
was really thankful! (x

honey was so super worried for me henceforth, insisted in going to NP personally to enquire.
well. it was a good day.

MANN.
TODAY IS MY DAY!!!!
haha.

HAPPY all the way.
i know nuts about the enrolment thingy.
well. just follow what it says in the booklet.

for now, summary of monday.
had class at SDT.
was really getting bored and long.
didnt feel too well to continue to dance. well.
monday really sucked, at SDT.
boredom was roaming the place.
--
however, things head for the worse when i get to dancepointe.
went to office to peep if anyone was there.
well, shaun was there.
didnt want to say hi to him as i was so guilty and didnt dare to even look at him, because id let him down.
i was trying to avoid.
so dumb of me! shouldnt have went to the office.
DUMBO DEBORAH! ):

well. life has to carry on., i thought.
so i put on a smile on my bloody face.
and said hi to him.
and there i went, dashing to the studio for extra prac with the grade 8s.
girlfriend was good! haha. :D
LOVE GIRLFRIEND!
--
after grade 8, beginners hip hop. then break then advanced hiphop.
well. during the break, i really dont feel like staying in the office as i was too ashamed of myself to face shaun.
so i went off to studio to dance my life out.
haiya. whatever. dancing myself?
LONELY.
HAIYA. dont want to talk about it already.
just depression and nothing better.
-
now lets talk about better things.
hiphop was rather different that day.
was in fact, very different.
we did lyrical hiphop.
really enjoyed it. got the feel of it.
mann. was so shiok. (:
-
well. first time doing lyrical hiphop.
didnt know it feels this way. but now i know.

tmr got company class!
anyway, ive got no more mood to blog on.
im still feeling guilty.
contributed to the stuff. oh well!
life has to go on.
bloody deborah!
WAKE UP!
prepared for the worst.

ending my day just like that. ):

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Sunday, March 18, 2007

TODAYS CLASS JUST ROCKED
i cant believe im still thinking about what had happened yesterday.
which was the performance at east coast park.
i cant believe that im still suffering in guilt for these two darn bloody days of my life!!
i dont know what i should do.
i apologised, but it seemed not accepted.
well. if this is to carry on, i seriously dont know how to face you, teacher.
but yeah, hate me all you want.

for your information, tickets are running out FAST.
to those who havent confirm with me, I HAVENT BOOK YOUR TICKETS!!.
so confirm with me soon k?
not to watch me dance, but to watch those professionals up there.
lanky legs and muscular backs.
Woots!
*thumbs up!*

todays class was something i didnt really expect.
it was seriously strenuous.
here came a new student, yet a teacher-to-be.
thats what i heard from dont know who.
but anyway, she's good.
GOOD. as in. GOOD!
in strength and flexibilty? yea.
*claps!*
btw, her name is mei yi or something.
darn. my dance class is flooded with NJC people.
--
when will stmargs peeps occupy dancepointe?hahaha!

well. i need more proteins and some foods which will make me look fatter.
melvin claimed so.
guess he had a shock upon seeing me just now.
did i change in size?
haha.
i HIGHLY doubt so.
i just had strenuous trainings at SDT every single day from morning to evening.
i need theraband!
i need something really hard and circular and long to massage and relax my muscles.
they are working far too hard.
i need some ointment for my neck and back.
they are aching too much.
cramps!!- no way.

i seriously hate what i'd done on sat morning.
was a pig and then?
didnt manage to perform.
DISAPPOINTMENT.
it just sucked.

should i go tmr? or do i just, skip it?
sucks BIG TIME.
im breaking down.
my brain isnt working too well.
didnt have good sleep for 8 nights!
blardy hell. SIGH.

i love my mentor!
i love my honey!!!!
i love my girlfriend!
i love my teacher, ms foo!!
i miss my friends!-kelly & justine.
i miss company class cos i missed it on sat!
SUCKS BIG TIME!!! -kcuf-

can i just faint?
can i just be unconscious?
can the Lord just take me to heaven?
earthly things suck.
just take me to heaven.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

first of all, i want to declare my guilt for what had happened today.
i am seriously sorry for being late at such event, performance at east coast.
we had put in so much effort for today, yet, i destroyed it with ease.
wasted all those efforts.
wasted all those time.
shaun must be hating me to the core now.
but im not really concern about it.
just concern about the disappointment i've created in him.

i guess everyone was disappointed.
including i.
something to roar.
you guys shouldnt have told me to go down to east coast. when you guys have already decided to change the formation when im not included in the item.
that time girlfriend called me, i was very near fort canning.
i could just make my way down to SDT for company class.
now, i'd spent so much money on cab and what did i get in the end?
cold shoulder, embarrassment and .. oh well. i cant think of it.
fcuking pissed.

i know its my fault. but when you guys have changed the dance, at least tell me and not till when i reached the place when you guys have nearly danced till the end and yea. tell me about it.
so pissed.
AHH!!!! *bang myself against the wall*

FLAJ$#%dfmjq498te3$^%#GO%&.

im tired.
im emotionally, spiritually, physically and mentally break down.
tell you something dear.
i hate crying over you. i hate crying those small little things.
i hate crying over this relationship which both of us wanted it to last.
HATE CRYING!
dont make me feel so terrible can.
dont keep saying this and that about me.
i just hate those stuff.
get those off my ear!!!!!

today is a bad day.
and i guess, my bad days will continue, so long as i continue crying over such stuffs.
not worth my tears.
they are so minor. AH! HATE IT.

just need someone to slap and bash. thats all.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

okay. back to blog.
starting from where i had stopped?
which is.. sunday i guess. HAIYA. who cares baby.
okay. yesterday's stuff.
which is a MONDAY.

had company class once again.
but not madnoor this time.
it was PAUL. the ballet master.
was actually wondering why he went through the steps so like an old man.
HAHA.
my girls and i found out that he was afraid that we couldnt catch it.
so he purposely slowed down for us.
HOW NICE!! (:
well. ONLY AT THE BARRE.

came to centre work and everything turned from white to black and from black to white.
it was challenging and YES!
IM LOVING IT. WHOO~!
pirouettes and pirouettes! WHAA!! im so enjoying those LOVELY spins.
nearly did three spins. WHEETS!
but. nearly accidentally sprain my knee again. if i were to be a little more careless, i would have sprained my knee the 3rd time is 2 years!
--
niwae. contradiction was present abt completing those spins.
my toe nail ached like nobody's business.
the whole of my BIG toe swelled and nail was coming off.
PAINFUL. mann.

but i just enjoyed their company class.
WHOO. insanity.

somehow, i managed to SQUEEZE out those PUS from my nail.
HORRIBLE!!
was tearing drop by drop then.
gonna pluck those nail out after my advanced exam this year.
heard from xiuli that the feeling of dancing without toe nail on pointe shoes is just.
HEAVEN!
haha. how true is this? let me try. (x after my advanced exam in sept. ^.^

niwae. confirm with me soon for the tickets. mann.
must be quick in your actions.
because the tickets are selling at an alarming rate. WHAHA.
but no matinee show for now.
not at esplanade.
but at victoria theatre.
phantom of the opera booked esplanade one step faster than SDT. well. its ok.
we shall use the SMALLER stage. haha.
easier to travel. whoo.

SDT dancers?
HAHA.
TORU!! haha. he's like. darn good in his spins and jumps.
so now, he's crowned the lead dancer, 1st cast, for COPPELIA.
FANTASTIC.
gan pin is crazy over him. haha.

all right.
should turn in already.
shouldnt have blogged.
such a long entry.
YUCKS.

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Sunday, March 11, 2007

early in the morning at half past 8, i jumped out of my bed.
was late for company class at singapore dance theatre.
well. i flagged for a taxi and rushed ALL my way down to fort canning.
want to improve my style and strength, i went ahead with class even though i didnt bring my toe pad which could prevent me from injuring my toes further.
my toes are already suffering from breathlessness and pain.
well. cant do anything much as i wanted to "UP" my ability in dancing.
so after one hour plus of company class, my toes were already screaming for help.
but i still had rehearsals to do for the upcoming performance at VICTORIA THEATRE.
--OH.
anyone interested in ballet production by SINGAPORE DANCE THEATRE?
ticket pricing is at $28, $38, $48 and $58.
order from me and you'll get 25% discount.
but theres an additional charge of $3 for handling charge and sistic charge. (:
so hurry. confirm which catergory you want. it'll worth spending money on. ^.^
ok. there's going to be three days.
23march, 24march, 25march.
im doing 1st cast on 23march and 24march. so 25march, just some extra dancers needed in ACT one.
well. you can still choose to watch on 25march.
the main focus is to sit and relax and enjoy the performance.
it'll really be nice. (x
quick confirm with me ok? haha. :D
--
niwae. koreans guys are HOT!
soo cute. mann. HE'S HOT!!!

ok. nothing else to blog about already.
im super missing honey.
giving him a surprise tmr!! haha. :D
but i think he knows already.
love him!
i miss choongruixiang!!!

- i just wanted to say ...# ;

Friday, March 09, 2007

didnt have a bad day today. (:
was feeling happy ALL THE WAY.
because im a happy girl!

P.S: this is a reminder to spammers. thank you for coming to visit. and please come to visit my blog more often. to have you as my visitors, its really my pleasure! so enjoy spamming all right. it doesnt matter to me. comment all you want. because, what you say or what you going to say, they wont affect my relationship between honey and i.
i will say to you, "WELCOME TO DEBORAH'S BLOG!"
and before you leave, i'll greet you with, "THANK YOU! PLEASE COME AGAIN!"

anyway, i was supposed to work today. but unfortunately, my cousin got someone to replace me and i'd my OFF-DAY today.
well. so, i've gotten something to replace that emptiness.
met up with honey today and we played mahjong (computer version).
and then, his mother came back. seriously, she had a mood swing. and this caused both of them to have a heated controversy.

i sat in between them. tell you this. the feeling aint good.

but nevermind. its over!! (x
--
after that, went to meet aloysious and his people at cine.
entered pool centre and then, off they went to ZOUK.
of course, as obedient as i am, i headed home (:

got a call from my mom, and she told me that she bought honey something! (:
i was so elated. can feel the joy in me. WHAHAHA. xD

thats all. visited shaun's blog today. and saw some dances from youtube which he'd put last year.
OH MANN. going to take up lyrical hiphop.
the FEEL is PERFECT!
REALLY PERFECT.

the end. remember to tag.
TAG ALL YOU WANT! ^.^

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Thursday, March 08, 2007

unhappy with me?
then, TAKE YOUR LEAVE.
thank you!

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BELATED VALENTINES DAY CELEBRATION

i did much persuasion for my mother to let me go out with honey today.

honey had planned this day nicely and wonderfully for me. and this is the first time i received a REALLY BIG surprise from him! its really GREAT.

*THUMBS UP!*

-thanks dearie.

today is my first time stepping into VIVO CITY.

comments about VIVO CITY is that. its really HUGE and there are many branded stuff there.
know what. im so tempted to buy clothes from the shops at VIVO!

mann. but im broke. )x

landed myself at VIVO at 530 pm.

was supposed to meet dear at 5pm.

but i had a terrible stomachache thus, was late.

so it was bein pushed back to 6pm.

nevertheless, dear reached at 5pm.

so i was late and he was at some unknown place, planning the surprise he wanted to give me.
so in the interim, i went around vivo, window shopping myself.

went to levis and search high and low for dear's belt.

but couldnt find it. think only lot one has it.

i asked the promoter and he said that was the old design and they no longer the stock anymore.

SOB.

thus, im going to make a trip down to lot one tmr and get THAT belt!

the suprise was..

he actually brought me to SENTOSA!!!

took the skytrain there. DEAR DEAR IS SO DUMB! TOOK OUT EZLINK CARD! HAHA.

haha. :D

the place was really beautiful baby.

saw the orion's belt.

my brother and honey told me about it.

INTERESTING!!

niwae. want to thank kok wei, aloy an trisha for helping xiang for today's surprise. HUGGS!

ok. pictures time!! ^.^

our ring. (:

LOVES.

end here! take care.

HAPPY SEVEN MONTHS DEARIE!

08032007.

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

im mentally spritually emotionally physically break down.
we've been quarreling since this morning till now, it hasnt ended.
its just over a small little tiny puny mistake i made.
i just went out with charlotte and didnt meet up with you when im supposed to meet up with you.
i know im wrong and i'd apologized.
now you must be wondering why i can just use a "sorry" to take over all those things i'd done.
you told me to at least say a sorry when i know im at fault.
and now i did. yet you are not satisfied.
im already to the end of my tether.

for the whole week. you've been threatening me to say you want to die. you want to die.
you kept saying you want to die. just let you die and im free.
i can do whatever i like.
to what. let me be a BITCH?
i told you.
give me chance.
and u said u did.
but what you are doing isnt giving me any chance to!

God, just take me away.
Bring me to you.

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Friday, March 02, 2007

please everybody.
call me a BITCH.

niwae. just came back from bbq not too long ago.
it was held at julia's house.
GIRLS. you were GREAT!
two thumbs up.
GUYS. you were COOL!!
applause.

and CHARLOTTE!
you were funky yea. and BRAVE i must say.
danced repeatedly to our non-stop unsatisfaction sounds and gestures.
*clap clap!*

a few days ago. i was helping my friend to do some nail arts stuff.
was a model for her. though tiring. but. it was interesting.
sat there for hours until my butt was gasping for breath.
took many photos but they arent with me.
--
heard that i was on the newspaper yesterday!!
haha. gonna grap it and take a good look.

that particular day.
my name was BITCH.
and i'd caused my dear to suffer from headache and nausea.
bang my head against the wall.
such a lousy girlfriend i am.
CHARLOTTE!
safe me. sob. )':
--
shant elaborate more.
too ashamed of myself.
slap me.

i want to be free!!! haha. :D
clubbing?
yea. im free rachel.
tell me more. (:
hugs.

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